It's funny how I cry myself to sleep at night thinking of how messed up this life is for me. Funny how I still manage to smile in spite of the pain that's tormenting me. Funny how you're so dense to not feel that you've caused this misery. Funny how you say sorry for everything - when sorry won't make it better.
You know what? I'm the kind of girl who feels terribly hurt but still manages to smile. And every time I do that, breathing can be so hard. I wanna hate you for every pain you've caused me but I think I love you so much to ever do such a thing for there is ONLY one guy in my life (and that's you) and no matter what you do I just can't stop loving you. And it hurts to know how stupid I am that every time I run away, I just find myself coming back to you. I want to get over you but maybe I just can't seem to.
I'm jealous of every girl who ever hugged you because in that moment she held MY ENTIRE WORLD so that's why I cry myself to sleep every night, it's because every thought of you with her HURTS.
They say love is giving someone the power to hurt you and trusting him not to. So maybe I'm not scared now because somewhere between all our laughters, talks, stupid little fights and all our jokes you loved me and I feel loved.
For a fact, every tear tells a story...
I miss you with all my fucking heart and I hope it won't be too late...=(
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