to be or not to be....

to be or not to be
i used to ponder why i live
if the life i have is a great mischief
give the reason why am i in grief
do i deserve this mess?
wish I do not exist
to be or not to be
this is my question
are these all meant to be
like shakepeare’s hamlet’s tragedy?
this can’t be happening to me
i am rogue, i am strong
nothing can ever make me fall
i am mutant, i’m so clever
no one can make me sick ever
to be or not to be
this is my question
am i to be prosecuted like a convict?
be given a verdict which I cannot predict
this life is so brutal
i do not deserve this, i’m not a criminal
no need to run, no need to hide
yet its killing me softly deep inside
to be or not to be
this is my question
do I really need to be here
at the edge of the cliff w/ tear and fear?
i am engrossed by uncertainty
enthralled in my missing mentality
but I require no pity
i still have prowess and beauty within me
i may have lost my entity
but my identity will stay
to find my way and key
if it’s really to be or not to be…
to be continued...