I LOVE YOU....

I love to see you smile,And I love knowing that I caused that smile,

I love to see you happy,And I love knowing that I caused that happiness.
I love to look into your beautiful eyes,And I love the way I fall into them,

I love it when you hold my hand,And I love having courage to grab and hold yours,
I love to tease and torment you,And I love it when you tease and torment me,

I love it when you touch me,And i love to touch you.
I love rediscovering how handsome you are each time i saw you,And I love realizing how attractive you make me feel,

I love wanting so badly to kiss you, And I love the way you want to take things slow.
I love the fact that you still want to be my friend,And I love that I want to be yours,

I love so many things about you,But the most important things is:

I love you....

Portrait of a Friend

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with it's untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;

I can only support you, encourage you, and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you, but I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting, but I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.

I can only love you and be your friend.

What i've learned

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes. After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it. I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences. I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned that I'm getting more and more like my grandma, and I'm kinda happy about it.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned that you should never tell a child her dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if she believed it.

I've learned that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that sometimes when my friends fight, I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that if you don't want to forget something, stick it in your underwear drawer.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned that the clothes I like best are the ones with the most holes in them.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life.

I've learned that many things can be powered by the mind, the trick is self-control.

I've learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.

I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that although the word "love" can have many different meaning, it loses value when overly used.

I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

Hurt?Anger?Frustration?Depressed?

Ever been hurt? Either physically or mentally by someone?The feeling of hurt is especially intensive & heartfelt when it is caused by someone who is close to you or by someone who mean something to you....
The degree can be from very minor/mild, to something to the extent of indescribable..
For people whom you hardly know or you dont even care about, whatever that they say or do, would not affect you at all...it's just like a brush of air pass your ears...but if it came from someone who is special...it's just like a stab to your heart...
Hurt, is a feeling, and feelings are very vague, you could not really describe it...but sometimes, during a certain incident...surprisingly, it could actually be felt....the feeling of hurt...could actually be that intense that you feel it physically, as if someone is tugging on to your heart & you feel the pain...
There has even been descriptions like "it felt as if someone stabbed a knife into my heart directly, pulled it out, then open the wound & rub salt into it to see it bleed".....
Well, it may sound a bit dramatic, but some people have actually felt that...
It is especially true for some people who's love ones have just cross over to the other world to enjoy their life, & they are left alone suddenly....OR, it could be those people who have just encountered a sudden lost of love, because of a breakup which was unexpected after many years later of being together and you thought you knew that person....all these can be really heartbreaking...
Normally, for those who have just had their heart broken...alot of feelings would come along to complement each other rather than just hurt....There would be anger & frustration coming along, with thoughts of "what happened""why did he treat me like that"...then along comes with confusion "Did something go wrong? what did i do wrong" "Why i never noticed that there's a problem"....after that would be the sadness & depression of the "after" effect..."So many years....how could he/she..just gave up like that without trying""why has it got to be me?"....& at the end...all would be mixed up...
At this point, it is how the feelings are cope with, because there would never be an answer...the person, on the other side, if he/she would have thought of your feelings, he/she would have been more tactful...but sometimes...even the most cautious person, doesnt mean, they would not hurt you..as there could be a point whereby, they have to choose to hurt you...or hurt themselves...
And human beings....would always be selfish...at the end of the day...YOU YOURSELF do mean the most afterall....
so stand up straight, push the thoughts aside...find something to do...but not someone...as there would be another chance of being hurt....until one day, when you have finally let go of the past.....& ready for challenges, should you enter back into the world both with fear & hope...for a total new beginning...but this time...with better preparation...if hurt does come along again...to be able to handle it...=)

A Poem for my Wonderful Family

A Family is a place

To cry

To laugh

To vent frustration

To ask for help

And tease

And yell

To be kissed

and hugged

and smiled at

A family is peopleWho care when you are sad

Who love you no matter what

Who share your triumphs

Who don't expect you to be perfect

Just grow with honesty

In your own direction.

A Family is a circle.

Where we learn to like ourselves

Where we learn to make good decisions

Where we learn to think before we do

Where we learn integrity and respect for others

Where we are specialWhere we share ideas

Where we listened and are listened to

Where we learn the rules of life

To prepare ourselves for the world.

The world is a place

Where anything can happen

If we grow in a loving family

We are ready for the world.

Thank God for giving a WONDERFUL FAMILY that continue loving me no matter what happen.........

Thanks to my mama,to my 2 kuya who make me feel loved and special.....

Women's Compact Instruction Booklet

1. Never do housework. No man ever loved a woman because the house was spotless.

2. Remember: you are known by the idiot you accompany.

3. Don't imagine you can change a man - unless he's in diapers.

4. What do you do if your boyfriend walks out? You shut the door.

5. So many men - so many reasons not to date any of them.

6. If they put a man on the moon, they should be able to put them all there.

7. Tell him you're not his type - you have a pulse.

8. Never let your man's mind wander. It's too little to be let out alone.

9. Go for younger men. You might as well. They never mature anyway.

10. Men are all the same. They just have different faces so you can tell them apart.

11. Definition of a bachelor: a man who has missed the opportunity to make some woman miserable.

12. Women don't make fools of men. Most of them are the do-it-yourself types.

13. The best way to get a man to do something is to suggest they are too old for it.

14. Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye-opener.

15. If you want a committed man, look in a mental hospital.
16. The children of Israel wandered around the desert for 40 years. Even in biblical times, men wouldn't ask for directions.

17. If he asks what sort of books you're interested in, tell him checkbooks.

18. Remember a sense of humor does not mean that you tell him jokes, it means you laugh at his.

19. Sadly, all men are created equal.

20. When he asks you if he's your first date, tell him "You may be, you look familiar."

wounds and stitches

tuesday,14,october 2008

Open wounds and a broken heart. This is all I have. Seldom do I find people who care enough to stitch these wounds back together so that I can breathe. More often than not they enjoy seeing me bleed until there’s nothing more left for me to consume. These pains are tormenting me and it’s all locked within – desperately trying to come out.

I’ve reached the end of an endless road, and now I’m hanging on the edge of a cliff but still I feel cold, empty, lifeless and alone. At this point, I’m giving in to misery and hopelessly trying to take pleasure in the hurt. I guess this is how I cope up. This is how I'll continue to live…

Thinking about my Purpose.....

There is more to life than just HERE and NOW.

Measured against eternity, my time on earth is just a blink of an eye, but the consequences of my deeds will last forever.

The deeds of this so called LIFE are the destiny of the next.
Since I was made to last forever, what is one thing I should stop doing and the one thing I should start doing today?
The way I see my life also shapes yours...

LIFE determines my destiny. My perspective influence how I invest my time, spending my money, use my talents, and value my relationships.
I sometimes asked how I picture life? One thing I could tell....Life is a metaphor. I view life as I hold, conciously and unconciously.... It's a description of my life works and what I expect from it.
This WORLD is not my home....

Love to hate..Hate to love!!!

Have you ever been in love?Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.

It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.

You give them a piece of you.They didn't ask for it.

They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more.

Love takes hostages.It gets inside you.

It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so working its way into your heart.

It hurts.Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

Trust and then forgetting.It takes lotsa courage to trust someone..And it takes lotsa determinations to forget someone..

I hate love. I really do...
But I LOVE HIM....=)

mEmOriEs i juZ can't Leave in the past!

SuNdAy,12 OcTober 2008

...sweet memoRies aRe what's bEEn Left in my mind but painfuL memoRies aRe hiDDen inside mah' heaRt that keeps me cRying aLL night..
...why do a pLaya' Like me expeRienced being inLove Like this, i don't even know if this is a gift oR such a cuRse given to me..
...but inspite of it , i wanna accept it as something that is uniqueLy designated foR peopLe who is seaRching foR what is ReaL & tRue..
...i wish foRgetting mah' feeLings for someone was as easy as digging a hoLe in the backyard, buRying it theRe, & Leaving a cRoss on top of it to Remind me of how beautifuL it once was..
...but it could neveR be Like that. the truth is, foRgetting these feeLings is much Like digging my veRy own gRave & buRying myseLf aLivE!!!
...it was RiLy impoRtant to RemembeR that i can neveR Regain something i Left in the past..
...change mah' focus to the pResent & deaL w/ the state of things as they aRe, instead of cLinging to some memory of what i once had...
...memoRies aRe nice, but that's aLL they aRe!!!...huhuhu...

When Your Partner Cheats On You

"I'm sorry love, I wasn't thinking. I don't know why I did it. It just happened and it won't happen again. I'm sorry. Please forgive me."
This is a common plea for forgiveness. The person knows what they did was wrong and yet they have the audacity to beg for forgiveness.It's an unwritten law that you don't cheat on your partner. It's not something someone has to be told is wrong. We all know it is wrong yet people cheat anyway and then use ignorance as their excuse.
People who cheat are simply selfish people. They are only concerned about themselves and no-one else.
What these people don't know is that it isn't you who doesn't love them, but rather they don't love themselves. It's very similar to the person who is suspicious in that a person can only be suspicious of what they have done or what they can do.
In this situation, these people cheat to force you into saying, "yes, I love you and I forgive you".
But that isn't love. That's control. In this situation the partner will continue to cheat because they know you don't have the self esteem to leave them. They know that you are afraid to be alone.
Learn to love yourself... and free yourself! Don't be afraid. Your partner doesn't own you.
In other situations, a person who is selfish will cheat just to be cruel and mean. They don't give a damn about anything or anyone, including themselves. They pretend to be this and they pretend to be that, but the bottom line is that they are fake. Completely and totally fake.
Love isn't about cheating on your partner.Love can't exist when there isn't trust and commitment.
If all you want is a relationship that is 25% complete, then stay with a partner who cheats.
But if you are serious about love, then do yourself a favour and realize you deserve 100% all the time.
No excuse can justify cheating.
A person doesn't even need to be allowed 1 mistake in terms of cheating because we all know it is wrong.
We know it's wrong and nothing more needs to be said.
A loving partner will never cheat. Love is not about hurting someone else.
If your partner cheats on you, then there really isn't love.