y lyf so harsh?!

...ive bin nLuv w/so many guyz but ive nvr see myslf dat one day il b seriuos in hving a rLtionship.. i reaLyz dat im not riLy a pLayer!!! same as ordinary gRLz i knw dat i Loved sum1 so dip & true..nver imagine mysLf 2bcome dumb bcoz of diz s2pid ting cAlled Love.. but inspyt of the pains it cause me,im not afraid 2Love all over agen!!! it is such a wonderful feeling dat uplift mysoul 2 d highest divinity of Lyf...even f diz guy mkes me fiL dat im juz a crap, i stil love him & he wil aLways hve my heart,he can hve it anytym..am i riLy a fool 2 tke Love a 2nd chance?! watever diz pipz says i dont care coz dey nvr knw wat diz love bringz me & mkes me ril gud..after all,hu would nvr want 2b loved in return? you knw wat?! i nvr fil loved in return by diz guy dat i love most coz i dont even knw if he meant wat he says dat he loves me..i was stil hoping dat it was true,if evr he's not its alryt coz i knw we cn nvr ask sum1 2stay w/ us 4ever if dey already got a reason 2 leave,but of corz,we shud accept dat the real world promiz us 1thing to be permanent & dat is death and the rest of the things wil undergo changes,Ryt?! sometyms,i cnt help but wonder wer did i go wrong...i juz gve all dat i can but maybe it was'nt my best coz if it is my best i may not be this LoneLy... i stil wana be optimistic, so i dont regrets doz thing bcoz i bliv dat u shud nver regret the things dat made u hapi & dat d things dat we only regrets is not d wrong things we've done but the ryt things dat we shud hve done but we nver did...my story doesnt end hir coz me & d guy im toking abt was stil on a rLtionship but i was stil hanging & w8ng on his dcsions by now! its riLy tough 2b single wen evry1 expects u 2b w/ sumbody but being single doesnt mean u hve no1 rather an oppurtunity2say dat ure free 2 taste any1,hahaha..