“A Years”

Just opened my eyes, stretching my body as I’m still lying on my bed staring at nowhere! Suddenly my tears started to fall and felt pain within, how could this be happening? I’ve been tru this for sometime, anxiously I’m having this heart felt pain…As I realize time had pass, its been a years, that I said to myself “I’ll get over with this”. But it seems saddly I keep on falling and failing, how can it be possible for someone to feel too intense, and never even move forward! It’s been 5 years,still it’s the same person who makes me extremely happy and miserable. Just a thought of him at countless times makes me realize that I was never good enough…At this actual moment I have learn to accept that 5years of waiting and wanting that love to florish and blossom will never turn to reality, fairytales doesn’t come true or maybe it’s better to say it’s not meant to happen. I need to simply let it go, and try to step forward even if, it means a day to day struggle.
Look at me now? People see me with a vivacious persona, an endless cheerful smile, you see me with few worries on my back and rarely do care about defeat and depression. Once, I fail surely I’ll get back on my feet more firm though it may have left battered,bruised & scarred. All those hardships, betrayals, disappointments esp. After loosing my dad made me a stronger person! I more appreciate the beauty of life together with its tragedies and uncertainties. Hey, Life itself is not perfect so do KARISMA!
Nevertheless, I still believe that my time will come. I’ll walk that same isle that you women have walked at. Exchanging I do’s while wearing that white wedding gown too. I’ll see friends and relatives on occassions together with my man carrying our bundle of joy…one day. hopefully at this lifetime…